You know. Losing unfairly is one of the most infuriating things that could be felt. The sense of injustice it incurs surely, surely justifies that feeling. I simply hate it. But remember, I'm an idealistic hypocrite. I couldn't care less if United won unfairly. =D Well that's part and parcel of football. You win some, you lose some, in the end, what matters most is watching good football.
I ought to be sleeping now, we're going for a trip to Parliament later today. I'm tired but I feel pissed. It's such an unfair way to lose. 1-0. HIGHLY disputable goal. Oh well. I'll be fine tomorrow. =)
I've been so busy that updating this blog is now done once a week. I mean, I guess there are many things to write about, but, I tend to get so tired after class that I don't feel like it at all. Besides, I mostly write about my feelings with regards to love and I'd like to think that I'm dealing with the situation pretty well.
I guess as I've said, it all comes down to maturity...I was horrifically guilty of being highly immature before. I can feel the difference, and it really gives me a sense of pride that I'm growing to be hopefully, a person that everyone can be proud of.
University and studies have been so far, quite interesting. I've not really knuckled down, camped and started to study but reading cases are what I've been doing most. It's tedious and hard work, but it can be really...interesting? Some of the cases are purely absurd. And the most significant thing I've learnt from my time in law so far? Doctors epic fail. And I wanted to be a doctor once. Hah.
In any case I'm having greater joy than at Engineering...I don't understand the judge's words and decisions sometimes, but I CAN understand it via thinking...much better than cracking my skull open and not getting any math in =D What's worrying is that I'm less inclined towards futsal. Since recovering from the knee injury I've only played once. And I miss playing with Mr Lee KB. We've formed such a telephatic understanding of each other's game. Hahahah.
That's it for today, I'm tired.
Monday, November 9, 2009
Monday, November 2, 2009
November
Every night, without fail, I will cry a tear or two. I don't feel sad or what, that's not the reason for these tears. I just miss her.
I'll never forget the way I felt after I told her that I like her.
I'll never forget the way I felt when she first told me, that she loves me.
I'll never forget the way I felt when I told her, I love her.
Nostalgic much? Yeah. :) Actually when I remember these, I feel happy. Wasn't it just pure happiness when I heard her tell me she loves me? Indeed. I still remember how I felt that day. And I want more of the same. I know it's not my choice to make, yes. If it were that simple, hahah. I can only do whatever I can on my part, and hope for the best.
"You'll stop liking me after a month or so."
Dear...
Ti amo per sempre. :P
I'll never forget the way I felt after I told her that I like her.
I'll never forget the way I felt when she first told me, that she loves me.
I'll never forget the way I felt when I told her, I love her.
Nostalgic much? Yeah. :) Actually when I remember these, I feel happy. Wasn't it just pure happiness when I heard her tell me she loves me? Indeed. I still remember how I felt that day. And I want more of the same. I know it's not my choice to make, yes. If it were that simple, hahah. I can only do whatever I can on my part, and hope for the best.
"You'll stop liking me after a month or so."
Dear...
Ti amo per sempre. :P
Wednesday, October 28, 2009
Reserved
My display picture on MSN is a "RESERVED" sign.
YYH is RESERVED
i. to keep sth for sb, so that it cannot be used by any other person or for any other reason
So it says on my Facebook information "About me".
Need I say more?
I would be very sad. Mortified. Depressed. The day I stop loving her, is a day I will be extremely despondent. On paper it might be a wonderful thing, but personally I know how I hope not to. It took me awhile to understand that there was no intention on my part to ever forget her. Nor had I stopped loving her.
But it's a lonely struggle, isn't it? Sometimes I wonder why I'm doing this. But wait. It's not all that bad really. I do wonder why, I do wonder how, I do wonder what will happen. But it's out of my control, so really, there's nothing I could do more. I think. Or indeed, if anything could be done at all about this. So, no rush really. There's no progress but there's no rush. Hahahahah.
But the simple fact is we've not been talking at all. Hmm. Actually this is the fact that troubles me the most, but to be fair...well we practically know just about everything about each other so what's there to say? On MSN I mean. Let's not talk about in person talks because I'd be more than able to orchestrate that because I'm me. C;
Well whatever. It's out of my control. For now. I remember someone asking me, "If you wanted to be with your ex why don't you just tell her?" How does one answer that question? Hah.
"I did. It's not my decision to make. If only it were that simple."
What is my decision to make, however, is that I'm reserved, as defined above. C;
YYH is RESERVED
i. to keep sth for sb, so that it cannot be used by any other person or for any other reason
So it says on my Facebook information "About me".
Need I say more?
I would be very sad. Mortified. Depressed. The day I stop loving her, is a day I will be extremely despondent. On paper it might be a wonderful thing, but personally I know how I hope not to. It took me awhile to understand that there was no intention on my part to ever forget her. Nor had I stopped loving her.
But it's a lonely struggle, isn't it? Sometimes I wonder why I'm doing this. But wait. It's not all that bad really. I do wonder why, I do wonder how, I do wonder what will happen. But it's out of my control, so really, there's nothing I could do more. I think. Or indeed, if anything could be done at all about this. So, no rush really. There's no progress but there's no rush. Hahahahah.
But the simple fact is we've not been talking at all. Hmm. Actually this is the fact that troubles me the most, but to be fair...well we practically know just about everything about each other so what's there to say? On MSN I mean. Let's not talk about in person talks because I'd be more than able to orchestrate that because I'm me. C;
Well whatever. It's out of my control. For now. I remember someone asking me, "If you wanted to be with your ex why don't you just tell her?" How does one answer that question? Hah.
"I did. It's not my decision to make. If only it were that simple."
What is my decision to make, however, is that I'm reserved, as defined above. C;
Sunday, October 25, 2009
OMG what's that?
Once again I have abandoned my blog for a week, sorry bloggie.
Hmm. So classes are well under way, tutorials are starting next week, my Criminal Law lecturer thinks I'm a Chelsea fan (he's a Liverpool fan so I couldn't resist)
Mr Lai : Did you know Liverpool are buying a new striker?
YYH : Is it me?
Mr Lai : No, it's the beach ball, because it scored the goal.
YYH : Sir I can score goals too plus I'm dynamic, the ball is stationary.
Mr Lai : Weren't you the one who threw the ball on the pitch? Then you flew back here right?
YYH : Yeah sir, that cost me RM5000, but it's worth it since they lost 1-0
Lecturer-student bonding =D This Mr Lai, he's uber cool. Thus far, he's not quite been on time for lectures. Heh heh. All his lecture slides have Liverpool stuff in them. When I see him next one of us'll have a field day, because...IT'S DERBY DAY TOMORROW!
Life? Decent. It gets to me when I've to read cases that are 8 pages long. Takes a lot of time to understand what they're trying to put out. But it's managable, it's pretty interesting as well. I won't be feeling that way of course when I've got to start memorizing stuff :D
And I want a pet hedgehoggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggg
Hmm. So classes are well under way, tutorials are starting next week, my Criminal Law lecturer thinks I'm a Chelsea fan (he's a Liverpool fan so I couldn't resist)
Mr Lai : Did you know Liverpool are buying a new striker?
YYH : Is it me?
Mr Lai : No, it's the beach ball, because it scored the goal.
YYH : Sir I can score goals too plus I'm dynamic, the ball is stationary.
Mr Lai : Weren't you the one who threw the ball on the pitch? Then you flew back here right?
YYH : Yeah sir, that cost me RM5000, but it's worth it since they lost 1-0
Lecturer-student bonding =D This Mr Lai, he's uber cool. Thus far, he's not quite been on time for lectures. Heh heh. All his lecture slides have Liverpool stuff in them. When I see him next one of us'll have a field day, because...IT'S DERBY DAY TOMORROW!
Life? Decent. It gets to me when I've to read cases that are 8 pages long. Takes a lot of time to understand what they're trying to put out. But it's managable, it's pretty interesting as well. I won't be feeling that way of course when I've got to start memorizing stuff :D
And I want a pet hedgehoggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggg
God that thing is cute. Someone brought it in a cage to college the other day. God it's so cute. The ladies were shouting "OMG whats that!" hahahah. It's only slightly bigger than a hamster!
It curls into a ball when you touch it so how could you not adore itttttttttt
Imagine the effect it would have on cute girls who like cute pets
YYH wants a pet hedgehog.
Sunday, October 18, 2009
18th October 2009
It's been 2 weeks since classes started. So far so good, I suppose. There's a sense of calm rather than concern, I don't constantly worry about not being able to understand whatever is being taught. unlike in Engineering mind you. It's a pain having lots to read, but ah, everything's a pain in it's own way.
Every day, just before I sleep, I tend to think about my ex. I feel like getting up again, switching on the computer, and tell her how much I miss her and that I love her. But I'd be too darn tired every day that I just have to get some rest. Besides. Even if I was awake I'd be too tired to think of what to say. Which explains why I've not been updating this blog lately. Fatigue. I can't really think when I'm tired, and when I can't think, I don't blog. =P
Sometimes I wonder. And then there's this phrase I heard from god knows where. "True love is never easy" or something like that. And then that makes me think, it makes me query, it makes me answer, that there's only one person I want to call my love.
And that's all I need to know. Keep believing, YYH!
Every day, just before I sleep, I tend to think about my ex. I feel like getting up again, switching on the computer, and tell her how much I miss her and that I love her. But I'd be too darn tired every day that I just have to get some rest. Besides. Even if I was awake I'd be too tired to think of what to say. Which explains why I've not been updating this blog lately. Fatigue. I can't really think when I'm tired, and when I can't think, I don't blog. =P
Sometimes I wonder. And then there's this phrase I heard from god knows where. "True love is never easy" or something like that. And then that makes me think, it makes me query, it makes me answer, that there's only one person I want to call my love.
And that's all I need to know. Keep believing, YYH!
Monday, October 12, 2009
Arghh!
Why am I so freaking tired every single day!!! How can one study like this!!!
Current internal clock system.
Average bedtime - 1.00am
Wakeytime - 6.30am
5.30 hours of sleep a day.
I won't have time to blog if not late at night! Hahah. Most of the evenings are expended on naps. And I'm still tired! Something's wrong, oh ho, and I don't like it. What should I do!! Eat more iron pills to get more red blood cells? :) Eat ginseng to increase endurace? :) Sleep earlier? :)
Current internal clock system.
Average bedtime - 1.00am
Wakeytime - 6.30am
5.30 hours of sleep a day.
I won't have time to blog if not late at night! Hahah. Most of the evenings are expended on naps. And I'm still tired! Something's wrong, oh ho, and I don't like it. What should I do!! Eat more iron pills to get more red blood cells? :) Eat ginseng to increase endurace? :) Sleep earlier? :)
Sunday, October 11, 2009
Extract!
The following article was taken from a certain blog, by a certain mischievious person. Courtesy of Lindley Tam. Oops.
YYH.
At first, that name didn't sound awesome. He looked depressed and grumpy. And I thought, "such a party pooper. everything also dont wanna try or join. sheesh."
okay. so the sheesh wasnt there, but you get the picture. :P
that was my first impression of him. orientation in monash. fellow engineering buddy.
but, as we hung out together more often, he didnt seem so bad after all. quite fun actually. making me laugh at the random things that he says or does.
us being uber noobs at math. and feeling depressed about it.
going through hard times together. including msn counseling sessions.
sending me a random email that gave me a slap to the face.
introducing me to L4D! and being so patient with me when i kept shooting at you and screaming.
annoying the crap out of me with the constant " i like pie." or "shes so pretty"
cant believe it. but hey, YYH i miss having you around in monash! i shall never forgive you for changing over to taylors for law. ahaha!
you know why?
1. no more annoyance. damn my life seems dull now :P
2. no more l4d sessions!?
3. no more kaki emo.
4. no one to kacau anymore.
5. i just miss YYH.
p/s: you should see me play l4d now. you'd be proud of me. AHAHAHA. okay so im not that good yet but hey, still better than last time. l4d2? :P
pp/s: i know. "shes so cute" *cough* dont know how you can annoy me even on msn =.=
ppp/s: actually, YYH is quite the awesome. cos im awesome and i have awesome friends hahah!
COME BACK LAH!
ish. mengada punya ass. :P
Well anyway comparing life now and that at Monash, I can say that thus far I really am rather happy. That's all I want to say. The clouds of gloom and doom are gone, and ah, I'm not choked anymore. =)
But she's so prettttttyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy! And clumsy. And shy. And so darn cuteeeee :(
YYH.
At first, that name didn't sound awesome. He looked depressed and grumpy. And I thought, "such a party pooper. everything also dont wanna try or join. sheesh."
okay. so the sheesh wasnt there, but you get the picture. :P
that was my first impression of him. orientation in monash. fellow engineering buddy.
but, as we hung out together more often, he didnt seem so bad after all. quite fun actually. making me laugh at the random things that he says or does.
us being uber noobs at math. and feeling depressed about it.
going through hard times together. including msn counseling sessions.
sending me a random email that gave me a slap to the face.
introducing me to L4D! and being so patient with me when i kept shooting at you and screaming.
annoying the crap out of me with the constant " i like pie." or "shes so pretty"
cant believe it. but hey, YYH i miss having you around in monash! i shall never forgive you for changing over to taylors for law. ahaha!
you know why?
1. no more annoyance. damn my life seems dull now :P
2. no more l4d sessions!?
3. no more kaki emo.
4. no one to kacau anymore.
5. i just miss YYH.
p/s: you should see me play l4d now. you'd be proud of me. AHAHAHA. okay so im not that good yet but hey, still better than last time. l4d2? :P
pp/s: i know. "shes so cute" *cough* dont know how you can annoy me even on msn =.=
ppp/s: actually, YYH is quite the awesome. cos im awesome and i have awesome friends hahah!
COME BACK LAH!
ish. mengada punya ass. :P
Well anyway comparing life now and that at Monash, I can say that thus far I really am rather happy. That's all I want to say. The clouds of gloom and doom are gone, and ah, I'm not choked anymore. =)
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